Thoughts/feelings

Sometimes i feel like i could look into your eyes and see Mary. Sometimes i think you think about her a lot at times.
These thoughts wonder through my mind. Or you could into mine and think Mary, or you wish i was Mary. But im not. In my mind i know you still love her. And tho it bothers me, theres nothing i can do about that. I know that a piece of your heart still belongs to her. The time i told you that she was engaged you said you were sad about it. I felt broken. I didn't know what to say to you but oh. And i know that i don't know how that feels so its like i don't have any right to say. But it doesn't mean that i don't think about it at times. I know you love me, i definitely know. But i also i know you love both of us. And its the only thing that bothers me. And maybe i should have told you how i felt when you had said that to me. And maybe you didn't mean it like that but thats how your words were coming out. And in my heart i love you oh sooo much! You have no idea, how i have so much feelings for you! I know you told me you will get over her someday, so I'm trusting you that, it will happen. And i know I'm not like Mary, i will never be. I am only who i am. And just maybe that haunts me, as sometimes it is carried on my mind. But i will trust you because i love you, and you are my best friend and more! And i am so blessed to have met you. To have gotten to know you, and to have you in my life! If you are reading this just know that i do think about this sometimes, and wonder about it. I still feel like you are somewhat still attached to her. Because when you do talk about her, i can tell by your feelings you have. Just thought id say this out there. But don't get worried. I just thought you should know.