Un united

Deep down it is hard to love you, because I know your a player.
You cant just love women you have to love more then one.
And deep down I'm tired of playing this game.
As much as I love you I kinda feel like I have to let you go.
Because I just keep on getting hurt by you.

I'm always worried about being cheated on, and I'm tired of being lied too.
In my mind it's not fair to me.
I knew you couldn't let her go.
And now you tell me that I love you so much, when I know that's not true.
You have issues and they are hard for me to deal with.
I don't want to get my heart broken again, and I feel like you've already done that.

I'm tired of this,and I'm tired of playing this game with you.
I thought I could change you, but I believe I am wrong.
The news only seems to get worse.... And it's hard to bear it.
Leaving you is hard to do, and I don't really like it, but im upset with you.

Death in craped

I am dead now as I stand in the eyes of the forgotten.
Death runs down me through my veins.
Lurking around every Corner.
Searching for the unwanted and the hurting.
Grabbing them by the neck.
Luring them in by the lies, that ruined their life.
A torture chamber that will never leave.
Poisoning you till your death.

Cringing in pain either wanted or unwanted.
Sniping your life and being claimed by someone else.
The things you were told that we're going to save you but brought you death.
The dead mark on your face, that brought you disgrace.

The look of despair in your eyes as you turned clockwise.
The turn of Your body as it lingers in the air.
The smell of your odor, disintegrated.
You fade like the wind, you fade in my memory.
But I can only say the same, for it's me that will go too..
Except that it won't be with you.

Death has taken over me, and I cannot not say no this time.
It seems to be running down my spine.
And I'm no time I'll be gone.
Blood becomes polished now all over my open cuts.
I take my time as I know what's coming.
My breath begins to thin out. And I know that I don't have much time left......

I reach for something I can't see...
It seems odd in the distance, yet it seems so close. It might be my lost soul, it my shattered heart. It might be the odds ands ends of a lost life.

I start to blackout for I know this is the end.
I can't see anything now, for now I know I am losing control.
Death has reached its toll and it's time to let go.
Nothing is seen and nothing is heard.
It's like a deadly whisper and a life unheard.

Now fate has told its tale....

Escaped through the unwinding tunnels of the forgotten air.

You can try to run and hide, but fate will find you there....

In the ruins of your unwanted mind.

Contagious

As I think about it, I can't seem to let you go.
I hold you close to my heart.
I think about just being friends but I would miss too much.
We already seem to have this closeness.
And letting you go would just be too hard.
Even with our complications I still have a yearning to want you.
Knowing that I have never felt this way before, I tend to pull on you more.

Oh our conversations, oh how they are so lovely!
I care about you enough to help you through your problems.
To love on you more, and to experience the feelings.
Oh I love the poems that you write. And your freeness to express.
I guess you could say you lead me on, and I'm guessing I do the same.
But I love it. And don't you too?

More then ever I have given you my heart and spilled out my feelings.
For now it stays..... With you.
But then I start to hear other stuff, and wonder.
Is it true?
Should I stop?
But I keep on going.
Moving, breathing, loving you.
Hanging onto you like like a star in the sky you can't let go.

Am I crazy?
Yes, probably.
Am I in love?
Oh yes!
Am I happy?
Haha, yes.
Can I let you go?
No.
Can you let me go?
I don't know.
Do you love me?
Yes I'm pretty sure.
Can we fix/work out our problems?
We can if we want this.
Is it hard not to text you?
Oh yes!

The questions of the mind. That linger only in time. Oh how they are mine.
Oh how they wade at me.

Only a moment to spare, but it shows how much I care.
The only thing I know is that I love you and you love me.

The spring has shown. So I let it go.
I don't care.

All I know is what I know. The disease is love.

And its contagious.

Demented

Nothing seems right
Everything is wrong
nothing, nothing, nothing
And then I'm washed up in the rubble.
Failing at every corner.
Searching, searching, searching
Losing in the sight of thin air
A drift away....

Where am I?
Tired of it, and lost it.
Floating in the anguish of it all.
Dropping everything.
Losing hope,losing life.
I've gone and come back.
Only to find, wanting to be gone.

A mist, a fog, a line.
A sentiment reason.
A turmoil.
A earthquake.
A split.
A cry.
A undestined life.

A life born with regret and treason.
A no placer.
A no one with reason.
A common place book found but forgotten.

Taken but never showing.
A time table gone over and over.
A gun used but never seen in life.

The timing of everything and only found in misery.

The things of it all and the whispers of the forgotten.

No grace in time or lines left behind...

The untouchables.

Venting..... :p

Well today is May 9, 2012. And I'm really getting tired of doing my schoolwork. It just bores me soo much. You know? I always seem like ik taking tests all the time. And I fail a lot of them. I am soo ready for summer except not looking forward to spending some of my summer finishing math.
It's a bummer I know.

I don't have much for subjects left,after I take this social studies test,math will be the only left. I know my worst subject has to be my last. I can't seem to focus anymore either. Like I want to finish for the day, but I am distracted and get off track. It's like my friend too has the same problem and so does my cousin.

I think part of it is you give up on it avd then you end up failing classes and tests. I'm like that. I study for a test but if it's something that I don't like I don't seem to remember what I learned or did. Haha it happens a lot! Lol then I take the test and fail it avd end up re taking it.

Only having two grades left after I graduate and if I do, well hopefully I do. I'll have to find out what I want to do for college. Oh dear. The thought of going to college is ugh. More school, blah! Maybe I'll just get a job and take a year off then go to college. Even tho they say it's best to get that done first.

Haha idk. I'm just rambling off here. Just thinking..... Well someone says that school will be over soon this year because summers coming up. But that's not true for me! I see if I was in public school I would be failing exec more. So it really doesn't make a difference. You try but you fail.

That's all you can do. But yea. I should be studying right now for my history but like always I got distracted and vented to my iPod so I could write what I wanted to write on here. Soo yup. Thanks for reading. This must have been boring for you, hahaha.

Ok bye

-Melly

Away.....

Let's go somewhere, you don't know.
Where you can't see any part of me.
Lost forever and gone for a lifetime.
Like a wind in the breeze.
Like a boat sailing on the ocean.

Like a flower washed away.
Like a whisk in the moonlight bay.
And then turned right over; forgotten.
Like I wasn't even here.
Washed away and hidden.
Kept in secret, and gone.

Like it never even happened.
Gone like a bliss, that can oh be missed.
A sacred lost heart, mind, and soul.
Like a loved one lost in a hole.
Forever lost in her soul.

Forever and forever whisked away.
Forever and ever ln harms way.
Forever and ever turned the other way.
Forever and ever hidden.

Never to show again, and never to come back. Washed away from everything.

Away....Away...Away....

From your left side conscious.