Despair?

The feeling overwhelms me
And lost at what it is.
I sit in dismay....
Just wanting to cry
For no apparent reason?
Trying not to cry...

And listening to all the sad songs
Not knowing how it happened...
I think...
I can't figure it out.
Was it buried feelings deep down?
Was it something non existent?
Was it deeper then I will find out?

The thoughts and questions linger...
And no answers seem to come.....
I think I am truly lost...
Out of the uncertain and in despair
For something I don't even figure..
Have I gone under?
How long will it last?

Deep deep down.. There is no clue.
I'm lost... Lost forever?
I cry inside myself.
And hide in the mysteries...
Of life's untouchables.